6/3/09 – KAMPALA, UGANDA

It was kind of a low-key day and I found myself a little homesick, which surprised me. Upon noticing I decided I wasn’t so ready to be home as much as I was to have particular people with me. I actually it was the craft village. Haha! I was shopping and bartering and buying souvenirs for my sisters and friends (I thoroughly enjoy shopping for other people :D) and then I couldn’t wait to give it to them and then I wanted to know what was going on and wondering what was happening at home and I started to think about how I wished they were here to experience it wall with me. It was a thought reflected on more as we met with Vickie and Kathleen. Two single women doing great things by themselves in a country very much a part from their own. I may be called to be single – which is cool, that doesn’t bother me. Although I truly do not believe my life is being set aside for over-seas missions. Either way...I couldn’t be anywhere very long without my family. My sisters and brothers are my best friends. And my other “best friends”...could I survive a lifetime in a country far away without them? I don’t think I could. I continually say I’ve given God control over my future but it is very hard for me to consider abandoning my “mother and brother”. The idea of sacrificing them to be about God’s plan for my life is a very hard concept to fathom.

But I thank God for those who have been humble enough to accept the fact that God’s plan may not have been their own. The work those two ladies are doing is nothing short of incredible. I could have sat and listened to them for hours and hours more. I loved talking to them...perhaps because they were so real, authentic, and down to earth. The government officials gave us “facts” but these women gave us reality. I learned so much! Regardless of what I a being called to do, I pray I can be found as faithful with just as much passion and zeal.

“If we live our entire life on the mountaintop, then there is no need for faith”
“...but God is able...”
“God doesn’t call us to succeed. He calls us to be faithful and follow.”
“If you’re not tested then you’re not negative, you’re ignorant” (they were talking about HIV, but I thought it could apply to so much more!)
“You keep doing what called you to do and I’ll take of it” (‘God’ talking about uncertainty)
“You say you’ve surrendered everything, but you’re still telling me what to do!” (‘God’ :D)
“Do you think God would like to be our best friend too?” (asked by a couple of African boys who watched the lifestyle of the missionary, noting that she acted like God was her best friend)
“If that’s what you believe, that’s what you’ll behave”
“Judge yourself and love others. That was the instruction. But we’ve got it backwards”
“We want to throw money at things but we were supposed to give our hearts”
Fear keeps us from doing the things Gods says we have no business not to be about... (AK)
Be Real...